Oh God, what a night. As if the past 3 days were not enough of a trip, tonight I am buzzing. There is no pain in this body worth complaining about. Having achieved the age of 50, I realize I also achieved the age of chronic discomfort, or pain as it is normally called. Get used to it, that's all I can do.

While I was away, the world continued on in a different location on the planet. My life is the same, no better. My friend is telling me of sexual adventures that blow my mind. Let's see, it's been nearly 5 years since I had sex with a woman. Part of me screams silently for change in my life, a woman to spend time with, that's all I desire. Someone to share my experiences with. The world is a very big place, and best shared by the side of another who appreciates it as much as I do. I want her to see the beauty of nature as I do each day. In all my adventures, I have yet to find such a lady.

Now it is Thanksgiving, and I am still alone. This sucks. What is it like to be loved?